Where I’ve Been, and Where I’m Going

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Before I begin, I want to thank any subscribers and friends that are reading this. I understand that a near-six-month hiatus is a long time in our part of the internet, particularly when considering the fact that I had only just begun to build a following when I disappeared. Even if you never visit this site again, I want you to know it means the world to me that you would take the time to visit after such a long silence.

 

The sense of community in our sphere is one of the main reasons I choose to take part in it. It’s not just the dire situation our people face, or the simple idea that all peoples should have advocates for them—it’s the fact that, despite some of the seemingly endless in-fighting, the main motivation for us all is the love we feel for our people and each other.

 

Also, though I’m sure most reading this won’t judge too harshly, I do think I owe an apology. Clicking on a subscribe or follow button doesn’t take much effort: true. But, the reason someone does it is because they are expecting to see more content from the channel they’re following. Well, when that channel or account suddenly stops making content without any explanation, it’s a disappointment to the subscriber to say the least. For not saying anything and leaving my subscribers and friends in the dark, I’m sorry.

 

Now, with all of that out of the way, on with the reason for my absence.

 

There are a multitude of little reasons for not making any content over the past six months like familial obligations, work/life imbalances, stress, apathy, etc. Still, I think I’ll focus on what I believe the main reason was: being massively black-pilled.

 

I lost faith in the future.

 

That, of course, begs the question, “Why?” Well, in short… working in retail.

 

It’s easy to mitigate the black pills of statistics and real-world attacks with white-pill-distributing videos of Identitarian banner drops and Hangouts full of those of us who see the same things and dream the same dreams. However, working in the retail industry and seeing day in and day out what has become of your people… believe me: it’s hard to keep your love for them. It makes you wonder why you would even fight for them at all. Why would you care for the future of a people that seems to have given up on itself?

 

I’ll save the rants about retail for a future post. For now, I’ll simply say that it was difficult to find the motivation to speak up for a people that is made up of mostly those who don’t care to preserve what once made them great.

 

So, I (selfishly) decided to just focus on myself and my own future. However, as we all know, there is no unseeing the things we have seen. There is no unknowing. Always, in the back of my mind, I’d be thinking, “What will I tell my children when they ask what I did to stop what was coming? Shouldn’t I be doing something? Even if it’s all for naught, shouldn’t I at least try?”

 

And, that’s what I intend to do.

 

Though, not in the same way that I used to. Over the past month, I’ve given a lot of thought to what it is that I want to contribute to this “movement.” After careful consideration, I’ve decided that I don’t want to continue with what I was doing with The Motley Discourse YouTube channel.

 

Don’t get me wrong—I’m keeping the channel for occasional streams and plans I have for the (far off) future. What I mean is that after thinking about what I want to and can contribute to most, I feel the artistic “front” is where I need to be. Those plans I just mentioned include a weekly show I want to eventually produce that highlights the works of the various artists in our community. Another is a show that juxtaposes modern and traditional art.

 

But, again, those are for the distant future.

 

For now, with regards to my fiction writing, I’ll be concentrating on shorter works (like my Story Openings) that I can produce more regularly. Having the drive to make content does not, unfortunately, magically make the time for me to do it. So, I’ll be putting the long-form stories on hold for some time. Besides, it’s easier to have a sense of Identitarianism in shorter writings without it sounding too overt. I have a few ideas for that, but I won’t go into it here, since this site isn’t for that.

 

Which, leads me to the purpose of this site.

 

I said earlier that I want to change the focus of my YouTube channel, but that doesn’t mean I’m content to not express my opinions on certain topics. That’s what this site is for. What I was doing on the channel is what I’ll be doing here, just in written form rather than video. Much to my chagrin, I know I’m a better writer than speaker. My voice was never able to realize the real feeling of what I wrote.

 

Thus, this site is the perfect solution. I know it won’t garner as much attention as a YouTube channel can, but I’m fine with that. I should, after all, devote the platform that can get the most attention to something that can truly make a difference. I’ll let my opinion-writing stay relatively obscure.

 

Over the next couple of weeks, I’ll be trying to put out more content so it doesn’t look so bare-bones. I’m basically starting from scratch, so please be patient.

 

If you’ve read this far, I want to thank you for taking so much time. It means a lot. And, I hope to see you around here.

 

Looking forward to your comments.

 

Motley

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